Weekly Reflection
I’ve been away from social media for almost a full month now. This is the week that I’ll be downloading my apps back onto my phone. Am I excited? Did I miss it? Short answer is, FUCK NO.
Social media has proven to be an important part of running a business, even more so nowadays, but I am failing to see how it’s good for any other aspect of life. It’s more like poison for your brain. I suppose social media is like a drug; instant gratification, dopamine producing and addicting. I feel a sense of freedom and relief since I’ve removed instagram, tiktok, twitter, reddit and snapchat. How did I spend SO much of my day mindlessly scrolling, with an emphasis on the mindless part. No think! Just blend into the darkness and rapidly flick through thousands of posts from strangers around the world. Observe the lives these other humans are living and forget about your own…..
It was constant. My mind became unhealthy and the toxicity seeped into my bones. I stopped focusing on my goals, I felt unmotivated, tired and then angry. Social media became so important to me that I just stopped living my life and I was consistently anxious. I needcd to make a change or else I was on the path to becoming a pretty garbage human being. Deleting my social media was not the cure though, I have also committed myself to bi-weekly therapy sessions for the last 2 months. These two changes have made a large impact on my mental health.
The constant state of anxiety is gone, although I do still experience it from time to time but, I can manage myself better and it doesn’t stay long. I feel like doing things again and this has made me the most happy because I’ve started some new projects. My creativity has come back and that’s all that I want to do now. I just want to make things; art, DIY’s, pole combos etc. I want to learn ALL of the things too!
So, here’s me reflecting on my time off in my new home office (just finished putting most of it together today). I’ll only be downloading instagram and tiktok for now. I don’t care about any other apps. Instagram will be for pole training advertisements and lesson booking ONLY and tiktok will be to make funny/creative content about my life. I’m also going to try to commit to a weekly pole tutorial on youtube again, but with a twist…..I’ll be uploading content about the things I’m making, or learning to make. I’ll be limiting my time to be on any of these apps (mon,wed,fri) and keeping myself in check. I’ll be focused on my head space and what content I’m consuming online and this means I’ll be rearranging who/what I follow to keep my timelines free of any negativity, or garbage that I don’t care to see anymore.
If you’ve ever thought about taking a break from social media….please do it. You will NOT regret it. Go live life in the moment because the internet sucks.
okay, byeeeeee
